Thanks for taking the time to introduce yourself. We know you a little better already!
It sounds like a lot of the problems you are experiencing are rooted in your anxiety. We do have a sister site with a great program in anxiety management.
I have been on this site for a while now, but since I didn't give a formal introduction of myself, I thought it would help me if I did. I have Anxiety/ Panic Disorder. I''ve had it for about 2 years now. After I got off my medication for it (Lexapro) early this year, I got the disorder back with depression as well. I married early and my husband is in the military and we don't live together. I have a wonderful supportive family, and I really can't complain about my life in anyway, but after I got the disorder back, I felt so hopeless and helpless. I would end up scaring myself with the thoughts of death (which I still do) and I don't understand why we are living if we are going to die one day anyway. I've learned to deal with this a bit better but there are times I get so sad sometimes during the day. I am also jobless. I am afraid of driving to long distances and when there is nobody I know who can pick me up if I get a panic attack. I realized that I am on my own with my life, and the fact that anything can happen at anytime when nobody knows it, it freaks me out. This makes me afraid to take any steps out. Because of my fear of driving, I've stopped doing a lot of things and I feel pressured and guilty with friends and family because of this. I don't want to ruin things for people because of my situation. I sometimes wish a miracle or anything can happen so that I will have faith in tomorrow.
