Going to fill some of this out a bit more and first my thoughts about one other point.
That I could effect or harm anothers quit. After much thought I don't really think that is possible. From what I see, each of us posts here simply to get and give support. My heart is in giving to others and hopefully what anyone reads of what I have written my posting, writting will help them, if not I hope that they will for certain only take what they might use and please leave the rest.
I was devastated to hear in another post of how hearing about a long term quitter craving or having the desire to smoke would be frightening or unsupportive to a new non smoker. I simply can not buy into this. That piece of fear is not mine and needs be where it belongs with it's owner. If talking about what actually goes on for me, and even if I only represent a fraction of a percentage of the population, is frigthening then so be it. Nothing that I have ever said in any post is or has in any way ever been ment to frighten anybody away, infact my intention is really the opposite and meant to help, inform, educate others, if there is any identification with what I say then good if there is non then there is non. In all of this I intend to continue to post what is going on with me and to tell my story and my experience of how I carry out this heartfelt intervention of love for myself. And besides there are moderators to this conversation and if there are posts that are inappropriote than they will delete them, (been there done that).
Now to flesh out what I am doing, picking up the pieces of my life and this quit.
Seeing the Doctor, I am primarily going to ask him about anti-anxiety medications, they might help ease out the rollercoaster.
Nicotine addiction counselling specialist, talk, talk about what is going on and see if they have suggestions for dealing with the anxiety. (Now get this and get this very clear, there is a difference for me between anxiety and fear, fear I have lots and lots of methods of dealing with, panic and anxiety for myself not so much.) I would be very interested in hearing what an addiction specialist has to say about anxiety as it is one of the very common symptoms of withdrawl from any kind of drug. It will also be great to hear from any individ