I take prozac and welbutrin for anxiety and depression. I don't like talking about my depression and I don't want the inevitable fuss that would come from telling my doctor that I have had suicidal thoughts .... but I have had those for more years than I can even remember ... as early as junior high school.
I am so sorry to hear how you have been feeling so down for so long. That sounds incredibly difficult. I am glad you have come her to look for support. Have you had a chance to check out the program yet? Any questions so far?
Also, have you talked to a doctor about how you have been feeling and your difficulty sleeping? Have you received any form of treatment for your depressive symptoms before?
I have few friends, and don't like to impose on them
I have been trying to manage my depression on my own for 25 years ... with little success
I have a dog
I was divorced nearly 5 years ago, but was only able to afford to move out from my ex three months ago
I enjoy books, movies, astronomy, and working
For the last week I feel like I have been trapped in the worst circumstances of my life. To sleep at night I have been using simple sleep aides (warm milk, gravol) but I have been finding that they don't let me fully wake up in the morning.
Not that waking up is any great treat. I have been getting up to about 5 or so minutes of dry heaves followed by taking the pooch for her walk. Honestly, my dog is the only reason I am keeping to any kind of schedule.
Anyway, this feels like a last ditch effort to try to become a human being and I am not sure what happens if I can't improve myself. I need to find new work ... soon, but I need to be in a place where I can be useful to a new employer.
There is a quote that describes my predicament, it comes from one of my favourite shows: "My shoes are too tight, and I have forgotten how to dance."
