loves trees
I agree with you about emotions. A person without emotions would be about as alive as a piece of firewood. They need to be used in a constructive way. Allowing them to be blocked and only come out when you can't stop them is destructive. And I mean all the emotions, even anger.
I feel anger that my Dad died before I could become mature enough to become the friend he needed. I feel anger that I never made use of his vast knowledge. I feel anger at my mother for leaving him instead of trying to understand him. I feel anger when this happens to me.
I feel sad that my Dad had such a hard life. I feel sad that my mother died of Cancer. They were a happy couple before the war. Because of association sadness of any sort is going to affect me.
I feel proud that my Dad managed to survive in a world that had no therapists. How does your mind survive years of being told to drop bombs on people? He shut it out instead of talking it out.
If I cry at a sad movie it is not the movie but me. There as so many things that need to be felt and let out, the movie is just a trigger. Like a ballon, if you don't use these emotion, let them out and feel them you will burst. But you have to do this proper. Never aim Your anger at anyone directly. Accept they are the cause if they are but retaliation will make it worse.
Gailerina
Your dream is possible and there are books and magazines that feed on it. I live in a house in the woods with no neighbours and a big garden and wild animals passing through. I have only one neighbour in the surrounding mile.
I shop at a country store by choice and it is quiet. That is the magazine side of this life. Walking through the garden eating a carrot, picking an apple off my tree. Coffee in the morning with the birds singing. Stars you can actually see at night.
Paradise. But paradise comes with a price. Burning firewood to save heating costs. Fixing the pump that waters the garden. No power when a tree some where in the surrounding many miles falls on a power line. To overcome these things people have back up generators propane stoves and candles. There are ways around things, they are just frustrating some times. But it is a good life for those that want it. And as you can see I do have internet.
But this is Canada. I'm just far enough north to live where taxes are cheaper yet climate is still okay and we have a good medical system. Two real important factors when a person gets old. Money is always a consideration and I have none going out for medical and very little for pills. Food I grow a lot of because up here there are freight costs on a carrot from Mexico or an apple from Washington. But it is possible with the right attitude to be happy in a cabin or house in the woods but it has to be in the right woods. Even in some parts of Canada it would be impossible without a lot of money.
Davit
