.... well not exactly. I went to a bar last night that I used to visit regularly some months ago. Haven't been there since my quit. Low ceiling and many smokers in there. After a short while I became gripped by feelings of emptiness and envy. Although this lasted for no more than 5 minutes, it caused powerful cravings. And it's times like these when we fall and people DO fall by the wayside.
However, and I say this especially for the new members, these events happen less and less as the quit progresses; my way of thinking is that if the Nicodemon is going to talk to me occasionally, then I'm going to bite back:
"96 days? You've been talking to me for 96 days now and failed each one of them. Not much of a demon are you?"
(replace 96 with your smoke free day total)
After the barman accused me of calling him a demon, I decided to leave.
On my way out, I saw a younger man with his wife/girlfriend, cigarette in hand. It was like looking back at my old self; an old photograph which I could no longer relate to. I had no regret apart from the fact that I hadn't given up sooner.
When I got home, I threw my smoky-smelling tshirt into the washing machine..
Once a smoker...... smoker no more
Mr Ed
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[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/13/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 96
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,888
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] �720
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 16 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 10 [B]Seconds:[/B] 16
