Angelic,
Wow we have the same Mom! Sounds like she's playing the victim role and is being a little selfish. Trust me,,,I totally 100% underst and feel 4 what you're going through :(
Unfortunately the truth is that if you give up and give in now, you'll be just like her in the fact that you'll be playing the victim role. Go ahead and download her stupid sites,,,ONLY BECAUSE IT WILL GIVE YOU SOMETHING TO DO. Next, stand up to your Mom for yourself and tell her that tomorrow is for you and you won't be doing any downloading of anything for her tomorrow. Then tomorrow plan something nice for yourself as a reward for getting through today. When I was early on in my quit I rememer I went to Barnes & Noble cuz u can't smoke in there and it kept me busy and took my mind off things for a couple hrs and the best part was the starrbucks! Just an idea. I don't know where u live but if I still lived by the beach I would reward myself by going to the beach and getting myself a little serenity.
One thing good to know is you don't need your Mom or her approval to help you quit smoking. You have all of us! :) And 1st and foremost GOD will help you if u ask him :) Also I pray for my Mom and then try to let it go cuz I can be co-dependent to her very easily.
So....get to downloading LOL or if you really don't want to then don't and take yourself to Barnes and Noble or something! And while your there check out Alan Carrs book,,,The Easy Way To Stop Smoking". It's only $15 bucks :) Then get your butt back in here tonight and let us know how you made it through today without smoking :) You're a non-smoker now, so deal with it girl! LOL you can do it!
No matter what don't lite up...
Keep on keepin on...
Cherie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/22/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 386
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,732
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1544
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 37 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 9
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Hours: 20
Minutes: 44
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