Dad came to live with me and the kids about 2 years ago now. The place he worked had closed and he didn't see any reason to stay in Denver. I moved away from home at a young age and haven't seen much of my parents or siblings over the years. My father has always been an alcoholic and this was one of my concerns when he came to live here. You see, I had divorced an alcoholic that I loved dearly because I just couldn't deal with living in that environment. This was one of the best decisions I have made in my life so I had no qualms in telling Dad that if he wanted to come here, drinking would not be allowed under any circumstances. He has been out drinking twice in the two years he has lived here.
I had dinner alone with dad last night and in an attempt to cancel the �I can�t� fears, I tried to compare quitting smoking to quitting drinking. I even relayed the stories of Duffis and Nan. He has chosen and it is all about �choice�.
N2K, you really summed up the way I�m feeling.
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It took every bit of strength I could muster not to actually �mourn his death� in that very moment. The fear of losing him filled my heart and the fear of losing my own quit filled my mind. I was scared and angry.
[/quote]As many of you have said, all I can do is be here and continue in my quest for a smoke free life. I completely understand where dad is coming from. I was there myself just a few months ago. Smoking, Nicotine, the Nicodemon�.what ever you want to call it � it just makes me shake my head and wonder�..how, as a society of educated, intelligent people, did we ever get here?
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 211
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,227
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $738.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 18 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8
