I'm sorry to hear about that, NavyChief. That's really the pits, man, I've been there myself (long, long ago).
It's hard not to blame yourself, to not think you made it happen somehow. But that's not always the case. I have no idea about your relationship, but sometimes it doesn't matter what [u]you[/u] do because it really has nothing to do with you and everything to do with her.
Smoking isn't going to fix anything, but I can understand your need to minimize stress sources right now. Get yourself through this and come back when you're ready. We'll be waiting.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 301
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,033
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1143.8
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 56 [B]Hrs:[/B] 5 [B]Mins:[/B] 33 [B]Seconds:[/B] 40