H.A.L.T.
Hungry, angry, lonely, tired. These are four things that will get you in trouble if you don�t halt. No one has discussed this topic in a while so I thought I would bring it up.
Emotions are a trip. It�s been an emotional day for me. Mainly because I let things get to me and then it was just a spiral affect from there. It all began first thing this morning and instead of controlling my emotions, I allowed them to control me and I really ticked a lot of people off today. I believe I have had three of the four aspects of HALT working against me.
Learning to deal with emotions without hiding behind smoking is the hardest part of my quit. How I would love to be an emotionally sound person in total control. I have been quit a long time and really thought I would have a better handle on things now. That tells me just how much damage smoking has done to me emotionally.
In the beginning of the quit, I began to realize I had emotions then I realized that I had to face them. This was a dark and lonely time of the quit journey for me. I really used these boards here to get through it. A lot of my fellow quit family members were lights on that dark path and helped me work on dealing with me. I�ve spent many days of this quit in tears and in the pity pot. A year ago, this would have been too embarrassing for me to even discuss. Now, I realize that it is a fact of life and part of the process of developing the new me. The me that doesn�t hide behind cigarettes in order to deal with life. I believe I have made tremendous progress but when I am honest with myself I know I have a long way to go. Today was a day that served as a reminder of this fact.
Quitting doesn�t happen over night friends. What an opportunity this has been to define a new persona. Don�t ever be afraid to post about what you are going though. Emotionally we are all a mess when we quit. You are not alone, I promise.
Not every day is a good day but not every day is a bad day either. It gets better. We learn, we grow, we develop, we move on, we progress, we succeed, and if we are lucky, we meet some people that touch our lives along the way. One step at a time using N.O.P.E.
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[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/1/2005
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