Well, July 4 last year, hubby Mike & I quit. I made it about 10 days using Commit and then we traveled to a wedding and we started "cheating". It was extremely hot - like 103 degrees before the heat index (NC is pretty humid) and while shopping, I started to have the worst chest pain. It truly felt like a heart attack.
So I went to the Dr & the EKG didn't look perfect, so they ordered a stress test with the radioactive die; something didn't look right there, so they scheduled an emergency heart catheterization. This turned out to prove there was nothing wrong with me. So they sent me to a therapist for panic attacks. A year later, when I explained to the doc - not her PA who ordered all those tests - that I'd been smoking while taking commit she realized I'd probably overdosed on nicotine.
This past July 4, I picked a day and was a few hours into the quit when a co-worker I'm close to called on Sunday to ask me to email work that her Dad had died. Before I ever hung up the phone, I was already saying - I have to go buy cigarettes. That's when I realized that I was smoking for emotional reasons.
So I'm back at the therapist to help me deal with this aspect of smoking/quitting - found this support site, because I work in tech and am in a high-stress job and you guys will all be close by...
I've been studying tai chi for a year and found myself in a 3-hour workshop for strength training over the summer. I pooped out about 2 and half hours into it; I just couldn't do any more. And that's when I realized that I did a whole lot more than I thought I could...and IF I DIDN'T SMOKE I would've had the stamina to make it all the way through. My daughter goes, too and we all envy how limber and strong she is...and even at 50, I can get some of that back, IF I QUIT SMOKING.
Out of all these - the main WHY is the emotional prison I've been in. Smoking started out as a forbidden freedom and it's now a symbol of my enslavement. So I'm kicking the emotional bonds along with the addiction this time. I'm turning 50 in November, so what the hell? If I'm ever going to live without these burdens, now is the time to do something about it. I can't use NRT this time; my blood pressure medicine interacts with it, but I did quit for two years cold turkey about 15 years ag