My freindship ended with the person I've talked about a few times. I knew it would have to end and mistakenly thought I would be relieved when it did. I feel so sad. A little confused, too. She had been like a mother to me, then just turned on me for some reason I don't understand and was not going to get out of her. I told her that I had decided that if the reason was organic, I could deal with it ( I wouldn't take it personally) but if was not I could not put up with the meanness and moodswings. Of course, she tried to put it off on me, although she couldn't point out anything I had done. The center on aging told me to not ask, but take her for an alzheimer evaluation, but she belongs to an HMO that doesn't even have an alzheimer's clinic. So I couldn't be sneaky about it like they suggested. No one voluntarily goes, because they don't think anything is wrong with them. I feel like I allowed her to sabotage this quit from the beginning, because my problems with her began about 48 days ago. At first, I didn't recognize how bad this was going to get, but late last week, it got really bad and I started clawing it. Then I made up my mind about what needed too be done, and she was out of town, so I feel a little bit better. Then I decided I had to say something, because it was so stressful that I could not let it go on for a few more weeks and play games with her. I don't understand how things turned so fast. She was so good to me. Then she belittled and attacked everything I wanted or accomplished, even things that she had supported before. I was so mad at first that I don't think I saw the hurt.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 7/11/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 49
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,960
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $362.6
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 38 [B]Seconds:[/B] 53
