Dear Violet,
Boy oh Boy, I think alot of us can relate, I was married one year to someone who knew of my "illness" and needs to be supportive - you know "in sickness and in health" well, he became abusive after we married, pretaining to my illness names such as: basketcase, retard at large, uselsess, retard, - those are the more "gentler" names, well I had to get out - before I lost my self worth, he wasn't helping me to get better, I went to abuse group after that, and anxiety board, and now panic board, yes I do alot more in summer, but winter I may as well be a "bear" hibernate. Those comments "these guys" make aren't going to help us feel better about ourselves, see a dr., get support, get on proper medication and try to get him to read up on your "illness" - I posted this, but I will tell you: should you find yourself the victim of other people's bitterness, ignorance, smallness, or insecurities, remember things could be worse YOU could be one of THEM. Your panic probably also came on stronger by the "change" - change will cause it, and your move did it.
You asked if anyone experienced this, so as you see I did, even to boyfriends I find now, they don't stick around, so not for me "healthy" wise, anyway, my ex, went to a theatre with me, too and I got phobic in the middle crowded, asked if we could move to end seat, when I thought he cared and said "you ok" when I said that he said "that's why I hate going anywhere with you, always something"! That "hurt" I didn't know he felt that, sad thing is - they know it going in.
Good Luck and your not alone - remember "it is better to be alone and healthy, then in an "unhealthy" relationship and lonely".
Lonely Rene
