Another great post, Eve. :)
It seems to me that the quitting smoking, the getting over the cigs, is the easy part. It's the learning to deal with life on life's terms that's hard, often soul-wrenching hard. Never-smokers have had years or decades to learn to deal with life, yet we only seem to allow ourselves months, if that, to do the same.
You're absolutely right that this isn't a race. Nor is it a process that should be hurried. Patience is our greatest companion in this journey. Not only having patience with those around us, but having patience with ourselves to allow us the time to learn.
I am glad you decided to post this here. It illustrates the emotional turmoil so many of us go through or are going through. People take comfort in knowing that their experience is the same as what others experience. There is strength and comfort in numbers, even if it's just on a psychological level. I'm sure there are many here who will be strengthened and comforted by your post. I certainly hope it provided some for you.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 419
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,397
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1592.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 78 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 27