Remember I said that being around a smoker is not a trigger for me?
Well, that is definitely true. I just got back from my 52-hour trip to Tallahassee with my friend and co-worker who is still a smoker, and my resolve to stay quit is stronger than ever!
I don�t know if it�s because my quit is making her feel threatened, but she like chain-smoked for the entire time we were up there. The hotel room we shared was a suite with a bedroom (two full-size beds) and a livingroom/kitchen area. She kept the window open (good thing it wasn�t too cold!) and sat near it, trying to blow the smoke out, even though I kept telling her that the smoke wasn�t bothering me.
The meeting that we went to yesterday started at 10:00 am and ended around 4:00 pm. Even though there were frequent breaks built into the agenda, I was sitting right next to her and could see/feel/sense her antsy-ness develop, accelerate, and grow, starting about 30 minutes after each break. Meanwhile, I was serene in my lack of withdrawal symptoms! And it felt GREAT to know that I was NOT feeling what she was feeling! Wasn�t so long ago that would have been ME crawling outta my skin, dying for a smoke, finding it hard to listen, wishing they�d take another break, � and here, after just 17 days, I was sitting there calmly and quietly, not feeling a THING.
Last night we watched a movie in the living room and she did the sit-by-the-window-chain-smoking-thing. I went to bed before she did and man, she was OBVIOUSLY relieved that she could close the bedroom door and just RELAX and have a smoke without having to worry about me. She ended up sleeping out there on the couch.
When I woke up this morning, my chest felt all congested, that heavy feeling like I used to get after a night of chain-smoking. I thought at first it might be from all the second-hand smoke I�d been around the day before, and maybe it was, but then I coughed � and woohoo, my cilia must be growing back! I�ve never been so happy to see yucky crud in my life, LOL.
Tonight when I got home and opened my suitcase, PHEW! It reeked of cigarette smoke! I know that it always does when I travel, but this time it wasn�t MY smoke, ha!
So, okay, after this little trip, here are some of the reasons why I feel more resolved in