Well well well. How I feel on day 366.
What a journey this has been and what an amazing and totally eye opening experience.
I hope that what the meter says is really true. I hope that I actually get some extra life. Today has been a great slap up side the head. THREE people I know all with family members gravely ill, dying. That kind of news brings on the mortality.
So I celebrated yesterday the 17th, and I have had my bit of fun and as with many celebrations the morning after is the clincher. So I am even more watchful, even more vigilant.
What I really came here to post about is that I am really surprised, looking in hindsight at what was so very effective in keeping me quit. This site, posting to it and utilizing this site for the advancement of my quit. For me to see others struggle, fly through, trudge through has been the eye opening part of my quit. I got to learn so very, very much about my own personality and what I do worst or best. The regularity and contineuos posting has for me been the life giving and the God send. That I had a place to come to each time I felt shakey, that I had an ear that would hear, almost all the time. I must say I have the hardest time understanding English, however, that being said the misunderstanding is my own stuff and has not to do with any other than myself.
I guess what I really want to say is that this site has been the catalyst in my quit and has been the glue that has held it together. There was a point where I didn't want much to do with this site and I came back. I thank ladybugg for her sage words, took them to heart, Marie and Lilly as well.
While I am in the thanking mode and as my gratitude surfaces I have many people here i will most humbly thank. Shevie, Lady, Duffis and Pete, Marie and Gonnadoit, N2K and Free, my favorite quitter of all redrosie, Rob47 (without you beside me I am not sure I would have made it), ~ladybugg~, butterflyswimmer (a big hug to you pam), luna (I know you are in guatamala I look forward to your return), nosmokin tresa, chickstarr (alison), hummybird and golferman. THANKS from the very bottom of my heart.
I know that I have left some out and I am sorry for that. I know, I know, all the flames, so what, the past is the past and you are all superb quitters.
