YEAH Monica! Welcome back.... so glad you are hanging in there! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/31/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 5 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 57 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9.65 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26

:) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/29/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 89 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $40 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 20 [B]Mins:[/B] 16 [B]Seconds:[/B] 37

Stay close Monica. I want to see you succeed. I would love to see you in no pain. Short of that I would like to think of you going slow, in a way as to have yourself be treated with care and consideration for the wonderful person you are. Thinking of you with thoughts of gentleness today. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/29/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 86 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $40 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 18

It takes all of us for each of us. I'll be watching the site closely tonight and keeping you in my thoughts. How are you gonna get over this hump? [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/29/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 7 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 78 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $35 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 39 [B]Seconds:[/B] 21

I'm crying again.. geez you'd think there'd be no tears left. I did so much writing today in my journal and what kept be written over and over again were the same problems (with a few added which are newer) that have been repeating themselves for many years. That's when it hit me -- like so many of you had said before, what I have encouraged other's with -- There's never a good time to quit. There's always something, sometime's not so bad, sometime's crazy bad.. but smoking is not going to solve anything. That's what I have to keep repeating to myself. I have been checking out some sites on grieving and the grieving process. See the thing of it is, I'm not only grieving the loss of my dad.. I'm grieving the loss of what my husband once was. That's a story for another day. This is one of the ways I'm going to get over the hump. The other thing I'm going to do is what Denise has made me promise to do and that is to call her.. I WILL SWEETIE..I SO PROMISE THIS TO YOU! and I'm going to call you just for no reason at all if that's ok too. :) Oh my.. I'm real tired. Eye's all puffy. You guys are all too much.. you've been very honest with me - that's what I need, that, plus your compassion and comfort. The combination has been so helpful and supportive.. Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend and I plan on getting some much needed R & R this weekend. I need to settle my mind down. My breathing evened out .. did a lot of breathing exercises. Hugs and love, Monica58 [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

Ok.. I can't stop saying ok.. I'm back onto my quit. Read my previous thread.. "I slipped,,I fell" The people here who responded to my slip and Denise.. sweet Denise made me think, we compassionate yet firm about "Monica". So it's on the previous thread and now I'm hyperventilating..very erratic breathing... Me.. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

Thanks.. also Mr Ed I wanted to add you to my buddy list and there were 2 of you.. I added one and sent a quick message hoping I picked the right one :) Me.. [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/Angel.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 34 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 43 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8

Thank you sweetie... I figured you were observing. I've got a great support system and am going to use everyone who has been there for me and I'm going to be there for you guys too :) Love and hugs, Me [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/Angel.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 35 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 45 [B]Seconds:[/B] 29

Thank you Mr. Ed.. I am in great need of approval right now. Sometimes I don't think I'm making much sense. A little, sometime's a lot of brainfog.. Me... [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/Angel.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 34 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 4 [B]Mins:[/B] 42 [B]Seconds:[/B] 23

Well I've been doing what I've been advised to do.. get in some extra special R & R - what great friends I have giving me such wonderful advice. I watched a movie, I read a little, I went for a long stroll in a park near by.. All very relaxing. I have also, in between this that and the other came here, posted a few times and also picked up more info from other posts. I have recognized one of my major flaws -- rarely asking other's for help. That has now changed! I have to be able to fall back on people for help. I have a psychiatrist, with whom I bare my soul.. I have several friends - but can only bare all with just with one of them. I have one very special person here - same thing. It's hard for me to expose my inner thoughts. Not because I may be judged it's just my character. I've always been the listener, the one for other's to come to, to lean on and to be the caregiver of all. I think when you are so conditioned to a particular role you then see yourself that way and it's hard to break free. SEE???? This is one of the major lessons I've learned about 'Monica' from my slip. I can depend and need to depend on other's for support. That's why I made a solemn promise to Denise to call her no matter what the time of day! I so hope.. that through my slip that other's will see that if it should happen to them there are so many important things you learn about yourself. Then take that information and turn things around so that it was in your favour to learn to be a better person for it. Things happen for a reason - at least that's the way the saying goes.. Speaking only for myself, I want to keep learning about me, how I can improve my life in every way possible. It's almost like a game of dominoes.. when one chip falls it leads way to opening another window of opportunity and greatness...and so on and so on.... Completed day one! YEA FOR ME.. and in case you are wondering why this angel keeps appearing in all of my posts.. she's my guardian angel and I need her with me every step of the way. Love and hugs, Monica58 [IMG]http://i123.photobucket.com/albums/o304/Monica58/Angel.gif[/IMG] [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/5/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 1 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 33 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life