Thanks Marie for responding so quickly. I am trying not to beat myself up, but I feel like such a failure. Anyways, that is my plan, not to have any in the house, and then don't buy any when I am out. I wish I didn't have to go out at all, then I would be OK. Unfortunately, the shopping for the kids food or us, or bank, or any of that fun stuff would get done. My plan is to use my candy canes (I have three+ boxes of them) as a substitute. Sure will taste a lot better. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/15/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 55 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 58 [B]Seconds:[/B] 20

You guys are so great! I feel so much more encouraged right now. It gives me strength. I have no cigs left! Yeah! I will do this. Unfortunately I have no choice but cold turkey. We don't have enough money to even pay for bills. That's OK. Tried NRT's in past and we can see where that led. At least I know that in about three days, all the nic will be gone forever. I am smoke free!!! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/19/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 0 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 0 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $0 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

OK, I haven't changed my quitting day yet on my meter, but i will. In the meantime, I am sorry about a previous post where I got upset about the IM. I will deal with trying to figure that out later. I did read a post about thinking positively. I was supposed to quit on Monday. I had 1.5 cigs each on Monday and Tuesday. A few yesterday. Had no cigs in house today and was doing oK. When hubby called at naptime, I told him I was wanting one. That is how I relax, when the kids take their naps. Well, he tells me there is a part of a pack he found hiding up in the cupboard. So what do I do, I go have one. I was thinking about making them last over the next few days, but how am I going to get the nic out of my system if I keep doing that??? Duh!! to me! So I have one left which will be gone in a few minutes. Tomorrow I start fresh, with no cigs in the house, not being able to get any until tomorrow eve at 6:30, and with a new positive outlook that I can do this (with your help of course ;) ] I have no other support as far as friends or family. I've tried so many times that I don't think any of them believe I can or want to. I do!! I hate the control it had over my life. I am worried about the weekend. Being out and about is a big trigger for me. I will come post if need to and hope you will be here to help me. Thanks! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/15/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 3 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 54 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $9 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 6 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 22

Hi Daytime Mommy, I don't think we've exchanged a post before. I did the exact same thing you did. My husband had his brand in the house. I smoked it after a long day/morning at work, posted here at 3:00 am and all these angels replied. What I learned that particular night was to get rid of the cigarettes. If I had a pack in the house, forget it, they would be smoked. I can go to the stores and not buy them, I refuse to buy them, but if I had them at home, I'ld puff away. So I had to adopt the NOPE policy I read about here. Not one puff ever. I'll go from one cigarette to 1.5 packs in 24 hours. Don't beat yourself up, get back in the game, re-do the tools to reinforce your reasons for quitting and don't be so hard on yourself. Best wishes, Marie

LOL on the fun stuff. Faith just replied to my Anger post (at my kid no less) and said "wouldn't it be great if no one needed us for 6 months". You're going to be just fine. I'll be watching for your posts too ;). Being a Mom/Dad can be exasperating! Marie

Daytime Mommy, You hang in there Girl...you can do this! you sound like me a few decades ago. I was a young mother, no money, and "Smoking was not an option"..I had to quit. The same exact anger you are feeling toward yourself for being so weak is exactly how I felt... I'd look in the mirror, "What's wrong with you Stupid? You've got little babies in there...do you want them to starve? Nobody twisted your arm to smoke...you chose it. Those babies didn't ask to come into the world either...they were your pleasure."! So...you get your butt outside and take a real good deep breath of fresh air, close your eyes and think of those sweet little babies. Daytime Mommy this is your chance to shine like a Silver Dollar! Be proud of yourself for taking this step, yes...it's hard, but just keep thinking if I wait 5 minutes...the crave will pass. Leave the room, give one of your kids a hug instead of thinking about taking a drag, drink some water, eat a candy cane, but don't smoke. the craves will get farther and farther apart. The withdrawal will only be its worst for about 3 days...then...you have to work on changing the activity of a trigger. For example: Let say you smoke while your on the phone, replace the cig with a short straw to chew on...at least for awhile until you notice you are not experiencing the hunger pangs of the crave. Make sure, there are no ashtrays, or lighters to remind you to smoke. Write a note that is Big enough to jump out at you at some place in your home where you do most of your smoking "N.O.P.E." look at when you pass that area and think about your children and your situation. Think how much better your going to feel about yourself in just a few short weeks...everyday...you stay smoke free will be one day closer to being habit free. There is maybe an option too. I know you said you can't afford an NRT, but if your husband has medical insurance on you ...you possibly might be covered for this Chantix and it wouldn't hurt to ask. Or it might pay you in the long run to use a credit card to pay for it. Chantix will almost eliminate the craving. good luck hon...keep us posted how you are doing..auntdeb [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/1/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 18 [B]Cigarettes Not Smo

Daytime Mommy: You're listening to your junkie talk, convincing you that when you quit smoking, it will be the most awful thing and you'll miss your best friends terribly! You say you hate the control the addiction has -- good! Now get angry about it and determine that YOU are the strong one in this sick relationship and that YOU will make the decisions. Whenever you start the junkie thinking (well, I'll just spread out these few cigarettes, etc., etc.), slap yourself if necessary and remind yourself why you're quitting.j The way you talk to yourself, trying to convince yourself to smoke, should be a strong example to you of the hold this addiction has. Just say, NO MORE. NOPE -- not one puff ever -- and mean it! You MUST want to quit more than you want to smoke. Get rid of all cigarettes and paraphernalia in the house -- ask hubby to be supportive. Stay strong and let us know how we can help. Keep the faith If you can reverse your thinking [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 10/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 102 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 4,117 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $816 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 1 [B]Seconds:[/B] 56

Just wanting to pop by and wish you luck for today! Keep your mind off the cigarettes, drink water, nibble on something even, do whatever it takes to get you through these first couple of days - just DON'T SMOKE!! Yes, it can be hard - but it IS possible! Be strong! Deli [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/1/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 171 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,568 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �513 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 14 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 36 [B]Seconds:[/B] 46

Hi mate! Sorry I was not around yesterday.. I FULLY understand what you are going through the first few days are HELL!! Stick with it KEEP BUSY and post lots you will be fine HONEST! Its a great feeling when its done! And it saves lots of money! Phil x [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 164 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,447 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �861 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 32 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 59 [B]Seconds:[/B] 54

Does hubby smoke also? Talk to him about not being your 'enabler' and how he can support your quit in a positive manner. I can identify with the no family or friends. When my older children were little I was a stay at home mom and often felt so isolated (now there's a job that's terribly underpaid with little job recognition or advancement!) Get rid of the smokes and all the paraphernalia. You either smoke or you don't. There is no comfortable in-between that many of us have strived for..... Let us know how it goes! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 9/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 132 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,648 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1056 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 14 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 54 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8