I hope that this will be short and who knows.
When nothing changes nothing changes and to get a different result one needs to do different.
I started this journey some 90 days ago wanting more than anything to have something come out different than it had the past 2 serious quits and the past 2000 in my mind quits. I wanted to quit smoking. I had been plotting from December to quit, I knew the October before that I needed to quit. In my mind I thought I could just turn the little switch and I would be quit. I would not go to the market and buy smokes. It was all very simple just quit. February 17 I did just that at 10:30 am (on my way to IKEA) I stepped out the last cigarette, wished myself well and got into my non smoking car.
Well was I in for a lesson or two or two hundred. I really needed to turn the applecart upside down. I needed to do everything different. Starting with getting up in the morning, make myself something to eat right away and a big glass of water. Lunch time I needed to eat. The first dog walk, some hard candy and a biscuit or two. Breaks have become a time for contemplation, deep breaths and a relax, what a break might really be. Evenings are more relaxed. I get more done in the house. Each moment of each day is radically different than the monotony of smoking.
I guess my point in this is that I had to seriously take responsibility for each action I performed each day. I had to think different, respond to stimulus different, respond and treat my emotions different. I have had to consciously choose a different set of actions more than twenty times per day.
I never thought that I could be a quitter and actually have it happen. I even have found that I needed to change this thought and do it differently. What I think now is "WOW you really are a quitter, you (Phillip) are actually making this happen". When I shift this thinking I am doing different.
Each day more and more consciousness, more and more ability and more and more confidence come into my realm of powers. Soon I will be Riverdale X man and will be immensely strong. This I say with a smile and it really does feel this way. Each day right now I deal with a lot of stress and each day I do different and I look at what I am creating for my life and make the choice no