because I couldn't remember how many days since I quit without logging on here to look! Actually, I'm having a new set of struggles. I traveled for a couple days last week for work and am in a hotel at the present time, but going home tomorrow. Hotels and driving are larger triggers than I thought. I just feel lost without smoking here. Hotels were one place I smoked, although usually I tried to use the balcony, but I still smoked. At home I had to go outside. That was easier to stop doing than sitting in a hotel for a few hours without smoking. Driving is the same... I have a 5 hour drive tomorrow. I drove here yesterday, and my mood was as interesting as my name. I would be fine, and then I'd be so grouchy, I couldn't stand myself. Good thing I was alone. I thought this kind of thinking was gone, but silly me... no it isn't! So, today, I wondered what it would be like to smoke a cig. My next thought was how it would burn my throat, and make my lungs mad at me. That took care of the thought. I really know deep down that I won't smoke, but it seems like if I slip into any of my old ways of eating crap food or drinking too much soda, I want to smoke too. Funny how once we abuse our body in one way, it's easy to abuse it other ways. Sorry for being a whiner. I like myself better when I'm a bragger, congratulating myself on all my smoke free days. Which reminds me... my last reward? It was big--a new set of Bose headphones and ipod. So... when I wanted to smoke, I put my headphones on and "used" my reward instead. Geesh... :eg:
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/31/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 58
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 882
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $111.94
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 26
