I am pretty conflicted right now.
I need support and I want to celebrate. Don't know if this is the place and here goes.
Was up all night with a family crisis, a medical intervention and no sleep. Then to work with a very busy day and lots of pressure.
In the stress if what to do, how to respond I thought last night about smoking. I thank heavens I stripped my house no lighters, matches nothing so at 2:30 am there was nothing to do but think about smoking.
I didn't. I haven't and the thought was there.
In my truth the easy way out, would have been to deal perfunctorily with the situation, get out of the house and through the hospital and go light up. I celebrate that I took the high road and decided to remain in the integrity and greatness of the 320 something days I have of smobriety.
So I'll celebrate that I did not smoke. Move on with the minutiae of my life. Yes other battles impinge and impact on the battle to remain smoke free. Medical, family and other stressors add to the angst of quitting and we ultimately get to make that choice.
So for today I made the choice to be smoke free. I hope that I can continue to move through the stresses and keep the quit. We will see what happens tomorrow and on and on, one day at a time.
I post this thread so that I can clear my mind of this event. Get free from the pressure of this and just simply get on with my day. AND being weak in the moment turn to those that know best and have been with me all along. So thanks
Phillip
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/17/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 328
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 8,215
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2624
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 54 [B]Hrs:[/B] 8 [B]Mins:[/B] 39 [B]Seconds:[/B] 41
