Woke up this morning rather rudely from somewhat of a nightmare and I was scared. It felt like I needed to run.....and fast...almost panicky. Didn't know why exactly, except that I wanted to take some cigarettes with me. OK, Jude, this is an anxiety attack, how are you going to handle it. I remembered something I'd printed out from another site about anxiety and quitting, and once I had my coffee and the offspring his toast, I started to read. I was Normal.....no kidding, but this sure is uncomfortable.
This feeling has remained with me throughout the day, and the addict and me have had an almost constant conversation today about relapsing.
(Keeping my promise, you know who) And no I haven't smoked yet. But it is still consideration at this point.
I was going out this evening to buy my 1 week reward and now I'm thinking "what the heck would you do that for. You're thinking about relapsing. A little more work need be done before I reward."
I know, I know the Junkie is talking. But it is something I am having trouble with, this consideration of relapsing and when the heck, does the commitment come in.
I decided to post first, and I decided to just not smoke...for now, but this all day crave thing has really got to me. I did better on day 1. I keep telling myself it will get better, but Jeeez, I just can't come up with a good excuse.
The Junkie can be so convincing sometimes!!!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 11/15/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 7
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 154
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $80.5
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 18 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 39
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Quit Meter
$332,292.90
Amount Saved
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Quit Meter
Days: 6138
Hours: 17
Minutes: 0
Seconds: 18
Life Gained
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Quit Meter
45676
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
685,140
Cigarettes Not Smoked
