Thanks Penguin.
I had a dream last night. In it I had a cigarette from somewhere. I sat on the steps with it but decided not to smoke it. I left it there in the cobwebs. As I walked away my brain yelled "What are you keeping that for??? Get rid of it!!!". So I went back, reaching through the cobwebs and crushed it in my hands. Weird.
I saw in the news today a story re: a study with people with brain injury to a specific spot in the brain that may impact addiction, etc. I asked my husband to sneak up behind me and hit my head with a frying pan. He said he has already tried that but I am so hard headed that I didn't even flinch.
I don't know what junkie thoughts are creeping into my being, but you once told me to drop the attitude. I'm sick of feeling down so I think I'll give that a try. I'll stay shotgun for a while, but I really thought you had the directions. I hope we didn't throw them out at that last rest stop.
Maybe we're better for not having the directions. I question their effectiveness anyway so far. Let's just ask some people on the way and use the sun for general positioning. Who's to say what treasures we might find. I imagine they might have something to do with confidence, integrity, courage and freedom - all qualities that are personal gifts that we receive and/or strengthen as a result of this quitt'n journey.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/29/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 28
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 285
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $140
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17