N2k, I wish I could give you a hug right now. ((((((N2k))))))
I have an idea of how you feel. I watched my Dad do the same thing, only with alcohol instead of smoke. Oh, he smoked, too, and that was what eventually killed him, but it was the drink that destroyed his life's quality.
Loving with out understanding, loving unconditionally, and letting him know you love him. That is all you can do and I know you are doing the best you possibly can.
Let me know if you ever figure out a way to bottle these feelings of freedom. I got a whole bunch you're welcome to.
If there is anyone reading this that has not yet quit, please don't put your loved ones through the hell of watching you die slowly. Just quit. Now. Please. We'll be glad to help.
Shevie
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 5/23/2005
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 589
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 11,798
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2238.2
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 109 [B]Hrs:[/B] 14 [B]Mins:[/B] 22 [B]Seconds:[/B] 44