Tryagain Hi. My heart is with you, and please take a moment to just sit and know that although we mostly annonymous here, we are thinking of you and your child, and praying for you as well. We may not be close to you, but we are here for you. As for the NRT. You do what is right for [u]you[/u]. No one can make this decision for you, and I know lots of people here have talked about going back a step, for whatever reason. If that is what you have to do to stay smoke free, do it. And don't feel bad about it for now. Just take care of you. You can do this. I know you can, look at all the strength you have already shown. Post whenever you need us. Love from Nova Scotia [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 2/15/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 37 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 940 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $305.25 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 2 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 13 [B]Seconds:[/B] 8

No, I had not quit the NRT yet. I had just stepped down from 4 mg to 2 mg and was weaning off that when this hit. This is not someone I had not seen in many years. All of our lives, married or not married, since neither one of us had any family at all, we were pretty much all we had. The three of us, since we only had one child. Think of it like this - 1/3 of your entire family was just wiped out. Whatever happened, we always could count on one another because there was no one else. I still have not smoked, I am truly struggling through this and no I am not at all happy about using NRT as the same kind of crutch that I used cigs for. I can't help it. If I could sit down and just deal with these issues, go to bed until it passes, do something, anything else I would. I came back from seeing someone very close to me wrapped up like a mummy in white plastic and thrown into the back of a panel van like the so much junk. The cornoner was in a hurry because she had six more bodies to pick up, wrap in white plastic and then stack up the same way. On top of one another in a white panel van. I came back from that, and immediately went to work on living animals that jump, squeal, twitch and cower down, until ten o'clock at night. This morning I have a full slate and I know that no matter how I feel I must get through this. I do not believe I am going to have a cigarette. If I have to use something else then I have to and move on from that point, rather than smoke go all the way back and try to move on from square one. That's my decision, rationally and logically. I may be wrong. I am probably most certainly wrong, but I will not smoke.

TryAgain, I admire your compassion and sound thinking to help all involved. You did that without cigarettes. We are around the same number of quit days. I think ALL OF US will experience the BIGGIE somewhere down the road. I'm sorry yours had to be now. The Biggie will be different for us all. It could be death.. illness....job loss...trouble with teenagers...even pleasurable things like vacations. It is the Big ones that bring out the focus of "real commitment" in our hearts to quit. You have done great...no.... fantastic!! Your strong will...brings out our strong will that is deep in us too. Thinking of you....(for real) Mercy [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/21/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 62 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,250 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $277.14 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 8 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 37 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31

How do non-smokers get through bad situations and challenging circumstances without a cigarette? In a healthy way. The talk to friends, they pray, they take time to be alone... and like everyone, they accept that life is sometimes about walking through the fire. Tryagain, you don't need a cigarette. You need to find better ways of helping yourself through a painful time. We're here for you. Use us to help you find your way through this. Talk to God... talk to friends. Do whatever works for you, but don't reach out for something that will kill you. Your ex is gone, but you're still here. Don't be in a hurry to end your life too. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/6/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 18 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 461 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $166.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 3 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 14 [B]Seconds:[/B] 0

tryagain, have you been on the NRT all along or are you thinking about starting them again? If the latter is the case, please think clearly...are you thinking of nicotine as a tranquilizer? as a life-straightener? as a problem solver? This is absolute junkie-thinking. Don't go there. The only thing that will help you deal with life situations is LIVING. Living it with clarity and self-love. Now, let me also tell you that my ex died a few years ago. I had to drive for 8 hours to get there...I had to help my sons plan the funeral and do everything..for a man whom I hadn't seen in ten years. It was pretty devastating for all of us, so I understand your pain. He was a smoker and a drinker. The episode helped me to understand that I do not want to die that way. I hope you can hang in there. Others may tell you to start back on the NRT but I disagree. You have that out of your system for a long time...reintroducing a drug isn't a healthy way to cope with tough situations. Stay close...you have friends here that you can lean on. Rusty [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 12/13/2004 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 831 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 23,280 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2908.5 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 115 [B]Hrs:[/B] 16 [B]Mins:[/B] 20 [B]Seconds:[/B] 19

Stay Strong!! !We are here for you! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/2/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 22 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 448 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $139.7 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 1 [B]Hrs:[/B] 12 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 25

I cannot say that this is not the day I will not cave in. It has been generally so bad for so many days, and I don't mean craving or withdrawals, I mean just life and getting through it, that I feel like I will either cave and smoke, or drop back in the NRT program. I don't want NRT to be now what cigs were. [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/27/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 56 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,691 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $560 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 7 [B]Hrs:[/B] 10 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 52

thinking of you and your child...... [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 1/8/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 75 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,131 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $315 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 6 [B]Hrs:[/B] 23 [B]Mins:[/B] 24 [B]Seconds:[/B] 34

Tryagain Not often I am lost for words but this ......... Look after yourself Phil xxxxx [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 8/8/2006 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 228 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 5,019 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] �1197 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 45 [B]Hrs:[/B] 15 [B]Mins:[/B] 4 [B]Seconds:[/B] 7

Wow! What a traumatic day you've had! Congrats on making it through such a devestating situation by yourself. I can only imagine how awful that must have been! Reward yourself well for making it through this situation smoke free! I offer my condolenses to you and your family. Crave the Quit! Pam [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B] 6/17/2005 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 645 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 16,125 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $2663.85 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 45 [B]Hrs:[/B] 21 [B]Mins:[/B] 56 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15