Lookingglass - great question!
My life has never been better... I have never felt so good, so healthy and have never *been so healthy! I walk with a spring in my step, my hair smells soooooooo good - fresh and clean... I am not married to an addiction - I am free!!
I have never been more awake! I am so aware of ME, of my spirit, my needs and wants, my body speaks to me in ways I can hear now...(no more smokescreen to hide or colour clarity!) Sooo -I am more aware of the world and of others... I can see with amazing clarity, and the world is such a positive place to be!! When I was so busy feeding my addiction I could not have told you anything about what my body was feeling on a daily basis, much less what the stranger on the street corner was doing, when she may have been smiling at me...
On days when I think of smoking, which is so rare, I may say to myself, if I smoked, I'd have a cigarette right now, BUT I am not a smoker - and I smile to myself and move on... THAT simple it is!
I know that I will never go back to smoking - I have resolve and peace in this very sober world I live in now. w/out the smoke surrounding me and my world.
I can now really FEEL the feelings I was not aware of when I was with the addiction of nicotine. And I love the sadness, the laughter, the bright lights, the contentment inside, deep inside, that I feel now that I am fully awake and aware!!!
I am loving this life and every day really is a brand new day of being so awake, so alive and so aware!!!
Leaving behind the smoke screen is an Awakening -and for me, it is now a way of life that I love and am so grateful for!!!
Love and blessings-
Healer
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B] 3/5/2006
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 403
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 14,139
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1873.95
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 52 [B]Hrs:[/B] 19 [B]Mins:[/B] 53 [B]Seconds:[/B] 45