Today the 'thoughts' have been almost constant. I've been walking beside them, around them, stomping on them, ignoring them, distracting them, eating with them, drinking with them, etc, etc. Takes a lot of energy. Can't seem to turn them off, and while this is frustrating me, I know that that was part of the Junkie's plan last time. NOT THIS TIME.
I don't know how many times I've told myself today (maybe 15) that the thoughts will decrease in frequency, that it will get better, and that I will see this through to freedom this time, so BRING EM ON. I smile and chuckle because well...it feels good to feel good about this...and the Junkie hates that...being happy about it.
So instead of trying to forget about it, I am going to do some reading about the addictive mind (have a book) and try and get some perspective on this. (Ammunition...this is war).
Smoke free today. WHOOOHOOOO!!!!! (just for you Unhooked)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 4
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 80
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $46.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 11 [B]Mins:[/B] 29 [B]Seconds:[/B] 31
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Quit Meter
$332,256.53
Amount Saved
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Days: 6138
Hours: 2
Minutes: 8
Seconds: 18
Life Gained
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45671
Smoke Free Days
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Quit Meter
685,065
Cigarettes Not Smoked