The last "Rookery" was getting a little long, so I'm starting a new one to coincide with my new quit! Yep, that's right, I made a wrong choice, and it's back to the starting line again for me.
I knew I was making the wrong choice as I made it, so why then did I choose to smoke? I know the answer, of course...I'm an nicotine addict. But why give up on my determination and my commitment? Where is my sense of accountability? I've been trying to answer these questions the last two weeks, trying to figure out why I made that choice. I have the desire, and I have mustered up the courage to start again, so how do I make it stick???
I read a post a long time ago that has been going through my mind over and over. Sorry, can't remember who wrote it, but it talked about the choice to not smoke being on a moral level. YOU DON'T SMOKE, just like I DON'T STEAL, and I DON'T DO COCAINE! (well now my secret is out)
I made another poor choice and that was not to come to the SSC before I smoked. I should have asked for help! Practice what you preach, dummy!
So my embarassed head is under my wing once again asking for support, but most of all I am asking for your guidance as I continue on this journey.
Aerodynamically, a Penguin shouldn't be able to fly. Seems I don't know that because I keep on trying to.
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/13/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] -1
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] -20
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $-11.50
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 0 [B]Seconds:[/B] -2980
-
Quit Meter
$332,249.25
Amount Saved
-
Quit Meter
Days: 6138
Hours: 0
Minutes: 32
Seconds: 51
Life Gained
-
Quit Meter
45670
Smoke Free Days
-
Quit Meter
685,050
Cigarettes Not Smoked
