CJ, you are a strong, strong person. That's what you have to keep in your mind. Yes, these people are jerks and lowlifes. But you won't let them spoil your quit. Don't give your quit to them. Trust yourself to have the strength to deal with what you have to deal with in a dignified and confident way. A way that doesn't include turning to a drug. You can do this, dear, and we are all here for you. Please keep us posted. Rusty :) [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/13/2004 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 979 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 27,412 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $3,426.50 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 138 [B]Hrs:[/B] 2 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 15

cj Good for you for anticipating a threat to your beautiful quit. I think not bringing money is a good idea. Also, it might help to print out a one page reminder to read when you leave the court building, something to focus on as you breathe through the crave and walk past the store. I used one called "A LIttle Help For my Friends" on a trip early during my quit and will bump that up for you, but anything that you find especially meaningful would work. The point being, you can not change the nature of these people, but you can change the actions you take in response to them. Please don't let them ruin your quit. -aloha [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]3/22/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 150 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 6,000 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,020.00 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 21 [B]Hrs:[/B] 0 [B]Mins:[/B] 9 [B]Seconds:[/B] 33

I�m worried about losing the quit tomorrow. For the past 3 years I�ve spent a considerable amount of time at the Law Courts building for a number of reasons. My last time there was July 26th 2007 when the maggot who murdered my brother in law was sentenced to a measly 7 years in prison in a plea deal. The week before that, I was there trying to obtain a Peace Bond against 2 teenage boys who shot my daughter with a bbgun in May of this year. It was Mother�s Day. At least 3 little girls between the ages of 3 and 9 were shot by these 17 year old boys. My daughter still has a scar on her thigh, the shot broke the skin, and she had to have an xray to ensure that the bbgun did not enter through the skin. Each time we go to court, these boys, and their mothers bring up things that don�t pertain to the case at all. They�ve accused me of bad parenting, and other things. If we were in court to discuss my parenting, I�d go into it, but we are not, so I don�t feel the need to defend myself. But it�s still really stressful when a courtroom full of people hears their side of things and I walk out of there wondering how many people believe the garbage that these people have spewed. To get a peace bond is supposed to be a simple process. They just have to agree to it, or disagree. If they agree, we sign the papers, and they keep the peace. If they disagree, it goes to trial. They have done neither yet. We�ve been to court 4 times, and each time they have asked to have it remanded so that they may obtain a lawyer. This is getting so frustrating for me. I don�t want to live near these kids, but due to a health problem that went undiagnosed for over 15 years by Doctor�s who had no clue what they were dealing with, I have no choice but to live in low income housing for the time being. Anyway, my fear is that these people won�t have a decision again tomorrow when we go to court again. There is a store close to the Law Courts Building where I have bought cigarettes in the past. I am normally a very calm person, but one of these boys� parents can frustrate anybody. I have walked out of there so frustrated before. I need to figure out a way to stop myself from walking to that store and buying smokes if I get frustrated tomorrow. Maybe I should leave my bank card at home, and just take enough money for bus fare. If I can�t afford cigarettes, I can�t buy them. Although, that might not work, since my bank is only a block from there. DARN. I thought I had the perfect fix, but that won�t work. LOL. Well I�ve got til tomorrow morning to figure this out. Maybe Willpower alone will be enough! [B]My Milage:[/B] [B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/11/2007 [B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 8 [B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 200 [B]Amount Saved:[/B] $78.40 [B]Life Gained:[/B] [B]Days:[/B] 0 [B]Hrs:[/B] 17 [B]Mins:[/B] 57 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13