Hi elderone,
Where did that saying come from "naked as a jay bird", I mean, why not naked as a duck, or a robin?..always a jay bird..HA! Yea, I am crying today, anxious, restless..this really sucks. I don't want to feel like this anymore. Maybe because I have been on and off of every kind of NRT known to man for the past two years, with a few months of smoking inbetween..hence, going back on the nrt repeatedly. I am now to the point where mentally, I am done with smoking. I can't be on this merry go round of addiction any longer. And, I know that I have to keep my guard up at all times. I have made progress, tho. It is actually possible for me to be around my ex without bumming "one" cig. I can actually be at a bbq and not bum a cig. I don't bum any cigs from my roommate or take them out of his pack when he leaves them laying around. (sometimes, I pick up the pack and take a deep whiff of the tobacco) I am making progress. I have learned to say NOPE..all the time. I need to focus on the positive, accept when I feel like s#^@ and move on, smoke free. But, today, this sucks.
new me
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]5/26/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 94
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 2,256
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $470.00
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 13 [B]Hrs:[/B] 1 [B]Mins:[/B] 11 [B]Seconds:[/B] 6