thanks for everyones support. I just had a great experience! My sister called me and told me to get angry, and fight this panic. I use to be able to fight everything. After I hung up the phone, I let everything that has been bothering me for years just pour out of my mouth. I hit pillows and screamed, and just let it all out. I feel great, I haven't felt this good since I moved to this new place. I know if I could stay somewhat "angry", not dangerously so, but mad, at the panic, and what has happened to me, I believe I can beat this thing. I just have to work myself up everyday, and force myself to get out. Has anyone ever tried that before. I truly wish I had boxing gloves, and a bag to hit. It would be great!
Jeannie