Mornin' folks! I am feeling better and have decided to give myself a much needed attitude adjustment. I usually try to stay as positive as possible in all things I do. Being negative and indulging in negative feelings only leads me to increased feelings of doom and despair. So, time to stop feeling sorry for myself. I did this to myself and I am going to survive a little no smoking discomfort. Really, in the scheme of things I don't really think my little discomforts come even close to making the list of things I should focus on. I am lucky I found a place in time and space where I was ready, willing and able to go for even a day w/o a cigarette much less an entire month and one half. Today I will focus on my gratitude rather than my discomfort. Doesn't that sound so much more pleasant?
I am going to write the rest of this post in Kevin style and then I am going to consider myself past it. I appreciate you all and you all are on my list of things I am grateful for.
Aloha - Thanks for being so thoughful and so quick to respond. Turns out there isn't always a quick fix for a down mood. Huh? Who woulda thought?
Josie - All I can say is that you are awesome. Just awesome.
Penguin - I think you are right about the timing. I still don't understand it but I am seeing that this is a difficult time for many. It's good that we have others in front of us to tell us these things or we (I) might go insane! ;) Thank you.
Unhooked - Has anyone ever told you how funny you are? I love that mix of humor and sensitivity you have and I totally appreciate your interest in everyone's well being. Including mine. Thank you for caring!
Lainey - Thanks for validating me. I really needed to feel like I wasn't a total freak for wanting to smoke and quit all at the same time. Nah, I don't want to smoke cuz I would feel worse, not better. :)
Doodles - Ups and downs sums it up. Except it was mostly ups for about three weeks and then whoa! I am going to make sure I focus on the ups from now on. Going to be early is almost always good advice. Thanks fellow Mustquiteer! We're doing well.
Lizzie - I did get myself a chocolate shake. I did feel better! :)
Tom - Tigger is so much less disturbing than bird-tiger guy. (T I double ggg rrrr.) I love him! Yes, annoying annoying annoying! and exhausting. I know you are right and they will become fewer. I also know I will become stronger. Thank you for reminding me. I do feel better.
Greger - My dad is not the most outwardly sensitive man on the face of the planet. That is for sure! He quit smoking before I was born. Went from 3 packs a day to nothing. According to him he got upset with himself for panicing about whether he had enough cigarettes for the day and layed his packs on the dresser and that was it. Me thinks he forgets what it was really like. Then again, that was almost 50 years ago so I suppose I should give him a break, eh? What did you do for your girl's bday? Daughters don't want much. We just LOVE our daddys.
Kev - Whales! Haha. British humor!!! It actually took me a second before I got that one. I was like, "hmm. Is it well known that there are many whales in that part of the ocean?" If I get the hiccups I'm blaming you. Thanks for being here, Kev. You and your writings are so much a part of my daily routine now. Coffee and Kev. lol. Sounds like a morning radio show. :)
New me - I so hope you are feeling better. What an annoying feeling to be blah. It's like you don't exist. I hate it. Thank you. I will be keeping my guard up for sure. It's scary to think I could loose this and maybe never have another opportunity to be smoke-free. Chocolate for both of us then. In fact, I think I will pick up an expensive chocolate while I'm out today. I'll get one for you too! :)
Martha - You are so smart! I gotta say, though, I'm a little afraid of the "good stuff". Twisted? Yes. No more honeymoon? Well, this stopping smoking thing sure has a lot of surprises, doesn't it. Wouldn't it be nice if you just didn't smoke anymore and that was it. Yesterday, I smoked. Today, I don't. Seems simple enough to me.
Tresa - Can I just tell you that I luv you! You are so very sweet and funny. Thank you so much for sticking around to help us all. You are so encouraging. In fact, you were the first one to make a real impression on me here. I don't know if it was something you said or if it was how in awe I was of that counter you have going. It really doesn't matter which it was. Just know that you have a made a difference for me and I appreciate it. :)
Grandma - It seems like you and I have some similar feelings going on. Mourning possibly? I hope we get through it rather quickly. It is such a pain in the rear. Chocolate for you too! I know WW has chocolate. I'll get you some of that. :)
Nonic - Yes! I push myself to the point of tears sometimes. Almost always forget to give myself a break. 46 days is huge for me and I am proud of myself. Thanks for reminding me! You are wise and wonderful person.
Marie - I am going to remain focused and tough. The way I am feeling now, I think tough love would send me crying. I will keep the thought of Rocky in my brain. I will be Rocky and of course his mean, seemingly stonger opponent is the junkie. Rocky had heart and so do we! No one loves the junkie! SSC: 1 quadrillion - Junkie: 0
Sully - Chocolate for you as well! :) Thanks!
Wow!!!!! I had no idea what it took to write a Kevin post! I have a newly formed appreciation of your writings, Kev. You are one dedicated quitter!
:)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]8/25/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 46
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 1,380
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $269.10
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 4 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 39 [B]Seconds:[/B] 13