Today was my yearly physical. I was not excited about it, but I was not dreading it. After years of being harped on about my smoking, I was looking forward to telling my physician that I quit! I have been checking my BP so I know that it has improved since last year. I also have a much better lung capacity and have been eating better and have been working out. Point is, I know that I am healthier than I was a year ago and I was looking for a little affirmation and an "atta girl" from my DR.
So what did I get? He went on and on about my gaining 8 freaking pounds! 8 %$&*#@% POUNDS!!! LOL, my scales at home only showed 5 freaking lbs.(which made me nuts) But, 8? He says my BP is up because of my weight gain. It was up before I quit for pete's sake. Gaining 8 stupid lbs is not making it high. And it's not that high, it's not perfect, but it's better than it was last year. I am 5'6.5" I weigh 139 lbs now. On my last visit, I could barely fill out the behind of a size 6 pant. My shoulder bones could have carved a roast and my face sagged because I had no fat in my cheeks. I looked as if I were my Grandmother. I was too thin! I know that. I also know that the reason I continued to smoke was to control my weight. I've always been a little buggy about it. So I have finally accepted the fact that I would gain weight by quitting but the benefits would more than make up the difference. OK, 8 is not a few but, heck, it's not horrible! And I at least have a booty now (not a JLO booty but I have something I can sit on !!) Just because my Dr looks like a scarecrow and probably wears a size 13 boy's pants, makes him an expert on my size? He is a physician but, he has not run any tests on me such as body mass/fat ratio. And his office scales are wrong!! I use mine every day and it only shows 5 lbs!! dang it!!
The only positive thing he had to say about my quitting? Was, "doesn't your mouth feel cleaner now ? I know that when I smoke a cigar, I hate the way my mouth tasts". He's got to be kidding!
I cried all the way home from his office. I also thought the heck with it, I'll just go back to smoking and having nothing to put into my B cup bra. But, I got here and started typing all of this and I am getting more and more angry and I have come to the conclusion that I am going to find a new DR. Life is too short to shorten it with smoking and to have to deal with little weenie Dr's. I will not smoke again ever. I will however, find a new DR and maybe a personal trainer but only when I am good and ready..... 8lbs kiss my ash!!! and I had a huge freaking lunch today at that, it's probably more like 6 or 7 ppphhhhhhh!!
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]7/21/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 234
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 7,020
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $1,123.20
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 24 [B]Hrs:[/B] 3 [B]Mins:[/B] 27 [B]Seconds:[/B] 27