First time I have been able to get in here today, work has been AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!! Anyhow, thanks for all the kind words. Yesterday was a dosey guys, I almost caved, I went home at 3:30, made it past the gas station (thank God), no kidding on that I was praying and sobbing, pulled into my driveway at 4 and went to bed. I missed my daughters final school concert and everything. She said it was fine, her boyfriend was going and I don't think she wanted mom there anyway. BUT STILL!! I was up very little until I woke up this am at 5 and had to take an alprazalam for God only knows what reason. When I got up finally, it was hard, but today seemed a bit better until I got to work. I almost left twice again to go buy cigs..BUT I DIDN'T. I just kept telling myself the cravings weren't real, beacause they aren't, and I am feeling better some now. I walk on my breaks with my husband twice a day and usually cry through the whole thing and that releases alot of stress. I just can't understand why I am getting worse right now, I am becoming a failure as a wife and a mother, I need to kick myself in the ash and get a grip. I keep telling myself it is a phase and phases are not permanent, thus the name. The weather here is so ridiculous I am starting to believe some of the religions with the end of the world stories..I need to walk outside, I know that would help. Ok, enough crabbing. In our town it is TRIVIA weekend. It is state wide trivia contest, 39th year in a row. I played when I was younger, but not anymore. My brilliant husband let my 15year old daughter have a party, it is 24/7, cant wait. Oh well, they will have fun. Hope you all have a great weekend, even with my whinning and crabbing. :)
[B]My Milage:[/B]
[B]My Quit Date: [/B]12/6/2007
[B]Smoke-Free Days:[/B] 127
[B]Cigarettes Not Smoked:[/B] 3,810
[B]Amount Saved:[/B] $476.25
[B]Life Gained:[/B]
[B]Days:[/B] 10 [B]Hrs:[/B] 9 [B]Mins:[/B] 28 [B]Seconds:[/B] 17