i slipped cause i didn't want to be the one who didn't get to...
it's insane and makes me understand that the last 45 days i forgot to really dig deep and find out why i quit. i was busy quitting and forgot to ask myself the real reasons why... now i need to find those and those real reasons (even though most of us know the basic reasons- i am looking for the oober deep ones) and those reasons are what i need to know when the fight starts to fade again...
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 3/12/2010 Smoke-Free Days: 46 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,150 Amount Saved: $575.00 Life Gained: Days: 3 Hrs: 13 Mins: 24 Seconds: 10
You are right don't beat yourself up about it! You had a moment of weakness and slipped, now you can get back on your horse and start right back where you left off. It is your decision whether you want to restart your quit meter or not, but remember you are not obligated to do so. You have 46 smoke-free days under your belt, it is important for you to remember how hard you worked to make it this far. No need to apologize leelaknight, many people experience slips.The important thing is that you learn from it and prepare yourself for the future.
It will also help to reflect on your slip. What caused your slip? What is the underlying issue? How could you cope with cravings in the future?
well... i was doing amazing and i was even a bit cocky... then last night the demon got me. I felt horrible, i recognized the reason... i was too lazy to fight. i was tired of seeing other that i smoked with just getting to do what they wanted. so i did what i wanted. in other words, i gave up on myself.
the good news is i feel like and ass today! i have decided to not remove my current meter since i need the fact that i made it this far to keep going.
I felt as if i had it down that i was golden and good to go. i had been to parties before, i had had drinks no biggie... but last night i choose not to be there for me. i have to admit that i felt this desire to be perfect that i was perfect and when we cheat we are no longer perfect... but i will not let that be the case here. i was doing awesome and i still am...my god i made it longer than i ever have before!!! so i will keep going and remember what happen last night- hold last night's slip tight... part of me didn't want to tell any one here- but i knew if there is one place that should know it's here on the scc..so i can get your support as well as be a tool to other about this...even when you are feeling confident remember you have to keep fighting... ever day.
so i want to apologize and ask your forgiveness but i am not going to beat myself up, it will only cause more defeat...and i am here to win :)
sorry and thank you...
My Mileage:
My Quit Date: 3/12/2010 Smoke-Free Days: 46 Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,150 Amount Saved: $575.00 Life Gained: Days: 3 Hrs: 13 Mins: 21 Seconds: 35
