Hi everyone, I'm new and I'm so glad that I found out about this Program and Group! I feel like I've been dealing with this for so long, but it's been about 7 yrs. or so. It started when I was in middle school, but it wasn't nearly as bad as it is now. I hated going on the school bus and that was my only way of getting to school. I felt trapped and like if something were to happen, how would I get out and deal with it? I felt like, "what in the world is wrong with me?" So, a few yrs. later when I was in H.S., it became somewhat worse; still hated the bus, didn't like going on road trips, since I didn't like being away from home that long or that far away. So, about a yr. after that, that's when I hit rock bottom, or so I thought. I was a junior in H.S. and I would start having these attacks in class and it would hit me all of a sudden sometimes, and other times, it was like I'd feel anxious and then I would work myself up. It got to the point of me not being able to be in class at all. I would do whatever I could to get out of there; i.e. skip school all together, make up any excuse to the teacher, anything. So, needless to say, I skipped school so much do to my attacks that I was unable to graduate. :( I wanted to graduate so badly and I always did good in school, and enjoyed learning, etc. So, they kicked me out of school and I had to get a G.E.D. Not what I had wanted. So, a yr. after that, my mom was fired from where she worked and was about to have surgery, meaning I had to take care of her, plus do everything around the house. Cook, clean, etc. That's when I started up with my IBS problems, that I had had off and on through my childhood but it came to the point that I was having IBS problems all the time, plus I couldn't stand going far away from home because I was afraid of having an attack and I was afraid of getting sick. So, I would look up my symptoms, went to too many dr's, had so many tests done up. Nothing could be figured out. So, now I'm married and my husband is terrific. He really is and is completely supporting me with all of this. He's been with me now for most of the time when the panic attacks started so he knows the tough times. I'm trying to get into to see a therapist now, and I hope that my life can be a lot fuller now.