Sorry you are feeling this way lemontwist. That must be very hard.
I feel wrong telling you techniques to change your feelings because...sometimes things are just hard and trying to change them only makes it worse. I just made a post on mindfulness you might want to check out. It's worth giving it a try anyways. There are also some great youtube videos you can use if you have some extra time to really get to know mindfulness. Just do a search. You might even want to search for a mindfulness exercise is tailored for depression. Let us know if you give it a try and if it is something you might find useful. I would be interested in hearing your thoughts.
I'm not going to smoke. But I need to vent. I haven't craved a cigarette so much until the past few days; I just started taking an antidepressant and I hate the side effects (which are temporary) and I can't believe it's making me want to smoke so much. UGH!! I feel like I am going to crawl out of my own skin, and I have no appetite (above and beyond any lack of appetite I've ever had in my life), feel dizzy, and just like a giant ball of weirdness. I would love to be able to go for a run, but I can't with my ankle...