Ok I've been quit over 3 years and the Nicodemon is still lurking around when you least expect it. How do I know? Because I just returned from an awesome trip to Thailand and Japan and little did I know that travel creates all kinds of triggers I've never even saw until now. Frankly I think that I've been fortunate to not be around any smokers since I've quit. My family doesn't smoke, the people I work around don't smoke, and because of rules in the US I can go to any restaurant or bar and not have to see smokers. So I've been in a little bubble since I quit and that's OK. So what I realized on this trip is smokers are travelers and tend to like to bond with people they meet by offering cigarettes. That's ok but after 10 times of meeting cool people and having them pull out smokes to offer you one it starts to wear on me a bit. One guy even said "Are you sure you don't want one". Now I said to all of them that I quit smoking and don't do that anymore, but I will say that there was a couple of days that I was kind of feeling sorry for myself. They were on boats, beaches, bars, fun spots like what you see in the movies. Makes no sense my logic since smokers are the ones I'm suppose to be feeling this way toward. This must be the addiction still talking. Traveling also comes with a bit of stress as in my case I couldn't land because of a typhoon in Tokyo. So watching everyone light up around this does start to play on you. So the good news is I survived (REALLY) and I'm still smoke free. But I did have a dream when I got back where I wanted to smoke and I thought to my self "didn't I smoke one and survive that and stayed a non smoker?" I would go back and forth in the dream trying to remember if I had a couple and stayed smoke free.. Therefore maybe if I could just have this one in the dream.... Pretty heavy stuff I'd say for almost a 3 1/2 year quitter! Ron
