Try not to be too hard on yourself. You have an addiction. The important thing is that you want to change. How do you think you will feel if you wake up after this weekend and have not had a drink? Also, how would you reward yourself? Really think about this and please share.
You can do this. Work through the program and post often. We are here to support you.
Ive freaked myself out, last time i was here was three months ago - i never thought i could get that low again, and yet here i am three months later having spent all day on the bed feeling sorry for myself because i have succesfully manged to waste money on getting drunk - again - i dont even like it, i hate not being able to remember - and now i just feel like a total pratt, i really want to cure myself, and i really need to get myself focused
i'm so embarrased by my actions - and i just want to sob my heart out, and part of me despite really not wanting too wants to stupidly buy more alcohol so that i can get rid of the sick feeling in my stomach.
