Hello, I am new to all of this and am not totaly sure whats going on. 2 Months ago I moved to a new city and a new job away from all my friends into a city where I didnt know anyone, for the first 2 months my job went extremely well and I was feeling great about everything then beginning 3 weeks ago it all began to slowly crash, I have began to get negative thoughts which bother me and my mind builds on them and won't let them go as I used to and everything seems to be triggered from a panic attack where I felt I was losing control, Now my mind always thinks and obesses on things and won't let things go. So I fought with this for 3 weeks and then finally broke down in a store and felt as though I was going to lose complete control over myself and that I'd do something terrible without my ability to control it. I then went home and took a sedative and things were fine again I then woke up again at 5am with the same feelings and started throwing up and felt I needed to get out of the house so I went to a hospital but when I got there I decided to come back, when I got home I took another sedative and was fine again. I then went to see my doctor and he put me on effexor which I really don't want to be taking medication, I have the fear that it won't let me be myself and it will make me feel different but I won't be the same person?? So if anyone could help me with those concerns, And after I had the 2 panic attacks I have had constant anxiety since and am unable to go certain places and even unable to go to work aftet the events in whcih a week before I was fine and now feel scared and beging to sweat, heart races etc. Anyways I just want to know if anyone has been through the same and any advide #1 on similiar situations #2 on beginning medication. Thanks alot