Hello everyone! I am in shambles right now because today was the start of a new quarter for me, I got up and got ready, drove to school, walked up to school, went inside and then had to leave. My panic and anxiety was so bad this morning. I woke up feeling extremely anxious, I felt a buzzing throughout my body and it was really weird. Then I had really bad vertigo and I felt so off balance that I felt I needed something to hold onto. Then I became dizzy and short of breath. I had all the symptoms except the racing heart. I even had the depersonalization/derealization and everything looked strange and "hazy". This is my fifth quarter in a row since I took a break to have my son and I am almost finished. And you would think that after exposing myself to going to school repeatedly for over a year now that things would get better?! Today was horrible and I feel so ashamed and guilty that I missed my first class and have decided not to go to my second class. I really want to be there but my anxiety is at an all time high right now. The anxiety part isn't actually what is hard to deal with right now either. It's the vertigo, shortness of breath, headache, and all the physical stuff. I just don't know what to do but this is no way to start off spring quarter. I want to quit and just get a job but then I think, if I can't go to school there is no way I'll be able to cope with a job. I don't know what to do and I know I have not only disappointed myself but my fiance too. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I just don't know what to do and I feel so disappointed in myself. Thanks!
~Isabella~
