You know, your post Gene, made me think about the way I was before. Made me realize I've really always had anxiety (something I still had some trouble accepting), but so has everyone I've ever known. The key difference between what we go through, and what they go through, is simply willingness to face it.
I don't mean to say we're weak, we chose this path due to circumstances beyond our control. Our mind. What I mean is who we are today, is a result of yesterday. What we thought, felt, and reacted to yesterday, makes us who we are today. Should you decide not to do something, not because you can't, but because you feel you can't handle it, you begin to accept you can't handle certain things. This is a natural human trait, which can save us in many situations, such as if a bear comes running at you, etc. Heeey, I've read this somewhere before...
Back to the point, I wasn't "ready" to face a lot of things I faced before, but I still did it. This in turn made other situations bearable. Which in turn made my willingness to face the unknown go up. I was at a point where I got a high off of the unknown. I loved my anxiety.
So, cheers for bringing the chalk to the board, teacher Dr. Gene. The chemical inbalance makes things harder for us, but regardless of how our chemistry is composed, it's still on us to decide whether we walk through the door, or just up to it. It's when we decide to walk through, that truly amazing things happen. That's when our chemical composition turns into fireworks, and everyday is a holiday.
