There is at least once a day that I just feel like I can't take it anymore. Like this morning I got up to go to breakfast like any other saturday morning. I had been up for 2 hours in the night with anxiety symptoms as like every other night. I was anxious prior to getting there and just prior to leaving I had to get out fast. I just couldn't take it anymore. Then comes the dizziness, the edginess, the everything is getting on my nerves. I tried so hard to make it home without popping a Xanex, but I couldn't do it. I have to take at least 1-1/2 of them everyday (.25 mg tablets). When I take it about an hour an half I feel so much better, but then I just cry because I had to take it. I have a terrible fear of becoming dependant on them. I'm still waiting til the 2nd to see my psych. about trying a new medication. Again, I have a horrible fear of that since I had such a bad reaction to the last one. Sometimes I just lie down and think if I don't wake up it will be ok, but how will my little boy live without his mommy. Why do I go from high anxiety to severly depressed in just a matter of hours? I kinda of like the depression better because all you do is cry and you don't have the racing thoughts or all the wierd sensations. I really do love this board and I like to share things as well as reading what others have to say. It's not like the others where you get alot of negative feedback from whackos trying to be funny.
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i am still at that point but you just got to work at it, and expresssing your feelings or concerns on here are so helpful and asking any advice. it gets you through the bad patches. keep at it!