I think that I have been getting alot better. Some days are harder than others but I have definetly started going out alot more. I am not longer bound to my home. I go out to eat, to stores, even to bars and nightclubs again. Of course I still have a hard time driving by myself and when faced with going out shopping alone I get VERY anxious and even have panic attacks still. I have discontinued my use of Xanax and don't really yearn for it. I think about taking it to keep the anxiety caged but then remember that I really don't need it like I used to and tha it is only a band-aid. I am now faced with the constant nagging thoughts of "Will this ever REALLY be under control?" "Am I only kidding myself into thinking that Iam getting better?" "Will this happen to me again in 10 years?" I am really been trying to practice being in the moment and not worrying about the future but it's difficult. I noticed that lately I seem to be more anxious more often without having the full blown attacks. Is this a sign of a relapse?
