Thank you for your response and support you will never know how very much it means to me. You are right I am sad today actually I am quite depressed at the moment and having a lot of anxiety. These are two things I am way to filmiluar with and don't deal with very well. Thats a long story though to much to go into right now. I am not sure that my partner and I will be able to remain friends or do things together. We were having a lot of trouble trying to get along while doing things together. Sometimes I just think that a person has to have time to think and be free. Living with another person can very difficult and so can living alone. You can live with someone and still feel very alone. I am getting way to serious with this post so I will stop right here. I want to thank you again Davit for listening and for being a true friend. I will never forget it or you for that matter. Also one other thing, I also still miss all the people I have lost. They may be gone but they are still with me in spirit and very much a part of who I am.
It goes without saying that I will be here for you and will do all you want and need to help you through this time. I am rather expecting you to be sad, it is a natural reaction to any break up. If you need an ear to vent in you know you have mine. I still miss my parents and they have been dead for over thirty years. But time has lessened the pain. I hope you and your partner will still be friends and still do things together.
My partner and I are breaking up. He will be moving out on April first which happens to be April fools day how appropriate.
Things have not been working out for a long time so he is getting his own place. We may still be seeing each other but are having a hard time living together. I am a little afraid of how I am going to react to this once it is all said and done. I guess it is just going to be me here again all by myself on my lonesome. I am already having anxious thoughts and am trying very hard to challenge them. I am already starting to feel scared and alone and I am trying not to let myself get into a panicky state of mind. I am feeling a little depressed and lost and I am not looking forward to going through the grieving process again. I never really finished grieving the loss of my husband or my mother for that matter. I am going to need all of your support to help get me through this. I take comfort in knowing that I can count on all of you to be their with a listening ear and a kind heart.
Sorry to be such a downer today but this situation I find myself in was a long time coming. Thanks for listening.
