Just when I thought I had already experienced the lowest of lows in my life, I experience a brand new low - like right now for example. I feel like my anxiety has morphed again into something bigger and scarier: paranoia. I don't know what has brought this on; I really wish I could figure this out. Like all of a sudden I am terrified, and I mean terrified to the point of tears of being left home alone. I just feel like I'm always being watched, or that I see things out of the corner of my eye...and now I'm confusing the thoughts in my head as "voices", and that's just beyond frustrating. I'm beginning to wonder if I am really "losing it". I'm at my wits end I just don't know what to do. My thoughts are all negative as it is, and the harder I try to get rid of those thoughts the worse things feel. I don't really know how to explain it other than I'm a paranoid wreck, and I want more than anything to just feel "normal" again.
