Well..... In the next 12 hours I will be in the hospital getting ready for heart surgery. I've been doing a lot of positive self talk and reminding myself that I am strong and that I can do this and that if everything goes well and they find what they need to, they can fix this problem for good.
I am so afraid they aren't going to find what's wrong. I'm sure most of you can relate to going to the doctors and being told it's nothing. I know they know this is something, but I am so worried they are going to get in there and not find the pathway that needs to be fixed.
Not to mention the whole idea of even being in surgery!! I had a really good weekend. Did some meditating, relaxed most of the weekend and didn't have any anxiety. Now that it's the night before..... I'm on the edge of losing it.
I had a really good weekend. Did some meditating, relaxed most of the weekend and didn't have any anxiety. Now that it's the night before..... I'm on the edge of losing it.
