Today I finally finished planning a trip to Bryce Canyon National Park in Utah, USA. This will be a fun trip and a exposure trip too. Yes the words fun and exposure in one sentence, but very true. We will not be traveling with the travel trailer this time so there will be more exposure involved. The trailer is like having a house to escape to. The temperatures will be in the 100's on our drive there so we will be staying in hotels this time because of the heat. We will have to eat out more but will be taking a ice chest with us for our veges and stuff. Eating out and crowds means exposure. Anyway I am really excited about this trip and exposure to see Gods Country. Thats what I call it. It will be beautiful and we will get a lot of spectacular photographs. I cried when I saw the Grand Canyon in person. This is going to be even more moving. This is a reward for all the progress I have made with my Acrophobia and for quitting nicotine for 1 month. This is kind of a celebration of my new found freedom. My partner and I leave tomorrow morning. I have lots of packing to do now. Take care everyone.
I have been trying to exercise at least 15 minutes every day. I am not good with keeping up with it in the past but if it gets rid of my anxiety I will have to.
I think you hit the nail on the head for me, Red, that "once you get a taste of freedom, you just want more".
It can be so fun when you feel like you have done something successful and you want that feeling to last. I have found that over the past few months in particular, I get so excited that I'm able to do something without the degrees of panic that I used to have. Then, that feeling does indeed spread and shows up in more and more situations.
Today I was able to leave the house and go to my last quilting class and attend they tea party that we were having. It was really hard to fight all the negative chatter today so that I could get dressed and leave the house. Once I got to class I had a good time at the party and was able to relax. Some of my class mates helped me lay out my quilt pieces again. I am starting a new and larger quilt. My next class will be in Sept. unless I take a college class which my teacher is running. It is a 6 hr class which runs on Fri and Sat which would be 12hrs total. I would like to go. It is a little early 9am till 3pm and a little long.
I spoke to my instructor and she said it was ok to come in late. I am pretty sure she will let me leave early. I am not sure if I am ready or able to commit to a 6 hr class just. I will have to think about it long and hard. I am afraid if I don't get into a class again till Sept it may set me back and I may not be able to leave my house again. I also don't want to bite off more than I can chew. I will have to decide by next weekend. Anxiety/panic/ Agoraphobia can really be a very debilitating condition. Leaving in fear is not easy. It is something I have to fight most every day. It can get very tiring. I am going to keep at it though because I want my freedom from this condition. Once you get a taste of freedon you just want more.
