One of the things I learned as I got older and more crippled was that in the end I will still be dead and little I did in my life will last much past that. There are a few things I will be remembered for and a few reminders that I existed but these too will die out. I used to spend all my time being perfect and expecting others to be the same way. I don't want to give the impression that I don't care anymore, I do just not as much. I can ignore all those little annoyances pretty much of the time. The world is going for s....t and so are peoples attitudes. I'm not going down that road. When I am gone I won't care, I would if I had kids but I don't so it is up to them to fix it.
So that said I am going to get the most out of today. It is snowing quite heavy, the trees are covered. I'm having another muffin with my cup of tea and enjoying the view.
Sunny is outside with the dog, when she comes in we will attack my to do list. We might even get something done today. Might not either, there is always another day and if there isn't I will not notice. Being retired is for being retired.
I would have been saying to that critical colleagues voice in my head, "See a..........e you were wrong I can do this, I can do anything." How was the pizza? Even if you burnt it it does not make the voice right, some times we get things not as perfect as we would want.
"Believe and act as if failure is normal and not a defect." (because it is not a defect, it is an experience")
Believe and act as if it were impossible to fail. - Charles F. Kettering
As I was cooking a pizza, I found it hard to accept that I was doing everything right, since my inner voice is principally negative, I guesss. It's hard to dump the critical colleagues' voices echoing in my skull
The will to win, the desire to succeed, the urge to reach your full potential... these are the keys that will unlock the door to personal excellence. - Eddie Robinson
Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement. - Foster C. Mcclellan
surrounding yourself with supportive people will make those sparks larger too
Not many people are willing to give failure a second opportunity. They fail once and it's all over. The bitter pill of failure is often more than most people can handle. If you're willing to accept failure and learn from it, if you're willing to consider failure as a blessing in disguise and bounce back, you've got the potential of harnessing one of the most powerful success forces. - Joseph Sugarman
Making a lemon out of lemonade, seeing a silver lining to a cloud all depends on our willingness to reframe versus being negative
iF you have tried to do something and failed, you are vastly better off than if you had tried to do nothing and succeeded. You must never regret what might have been. The past that did not happen is as hidden from us as the future we cannot see. - Richard Martin Stern
You can do what you want to do, accomplish what you want to accomplish, attain any reasonable objective you may have in mind - not all of a sudden, perhaps not in one swift and sweeping act of achievement - but you can do it gradually, day by day and play by play, if you want to do it, if you work to do it, over a sufficiently long period of time
W Holler
Incremental growth is not as satisfying as something with "sparkle" or "smoke" but maybe its more sustainable, and less disorienting.
