I am trying so hard to not feel anxious & negative about my doctors appointment next Wednesday, I had breast cancer almost 10 years ago and lost about 1/3 of my left breast. Whilst I have been going through my mental health change I had neglected my physical health.
I found a large lump in my other breast about 6 months ago and did noting about it as my head was elsewhere, I finally went to see my doctor last week and have an appointment at the One stop breast center. I am trying so hard to remain positive, this lump is much larger & more painful than the last and appears to be oozing from the nipple area (sorry to any men out there, I don't mean to be so forward & open but this is the only place I can let go).
Anyone have any idea's how I can remain positive whilst inside being a nervous wreck?
What a lovely sentiment from your husband. I agree with hugs, post it somewhere where you can see it often - post it on your computer & your fridge! Remind yourself each day of how wonderful and special you are.
AND be sure to tell your loved ones just home much you love them!
You are such an inspiration to me. I can't always post replies when I read what you've written because often times I am checking from my son's itouch and it isn't compatible with the posting part of these forums.
Your example of living a life of positivity is one I want to follow. I had a tough weekend battling a strep infection. I have had a lot of anxiety and am now realizing that I need that energy to get better - and I shouldn't waste it worrying about things that I cannot control. So, I am going to focus on the positive and on getting better. That is my strategy for the rest of the weekend.
There are some lingering scary symptoms that are making me anxious. I am going to try focusing on all of the ways that I've gotten better over the weekend. Hopefully, that will get me through the night until I can visit my doctor tomorrow. I am so glad to see your name (and Muse), seeing both makes me feel more positive and Positivity is what I need most right now.
Thank you Davit, I lost my husband over 9 years ago I was only 36 and our twins were only 12 at the time, I had an abusive relationship a few years later but luckily got out of that one alive, the relationship I am in now has been the best I have ever had and the stubbornness and negativity of the old me has ruined any chance I had with this wonderful man. Unfortunately as I have said before he is just beginning therapy, so I fear the worst. I said I could not have negativity in my life and this has been taken literally.
I shall live to fight another day & have so much love to give to whomever comes my way.
Happy to hear you are feeling more positive today Matilda, old card's and photographs are such a blessing. Those and my memories are all I have of my late husband . Cherish every second of your life with your partner.
I fear my relationship of 4 years has come to a natural end & I am not going to let myself get negative about it. We had some wonderful times and I have great memories, I have come too far in this program to let this knock me back, if I can carry on life after losing my husband I can cope with anything.
I have had a very nice afternoon sorting through old photos and cards and putting them in a scrapbook. I found a card that my husband sent to me a long while again stating that I light up his world and to always stay my beautiful self. I had completely forgotten that, yet funnily enough I can still remember 2 boys at school 25 years ago saying that I was very ugly and that I would never meet anyone. Funny how when we are prone to anxiety we can only remember the negative things said to us. I am now always going to try and remember that card.
