Hello Everyone, I was hoping Carmie and Sunny were online or a someone that could please give me encouragement for an appt I cannot make. If you read my other fourms I have visited three doctors and my nurse in less than a month which is probably a record for me and I am still very sick, I am currently taking antibotics again and hoping they will clear up this horrible mess I have been in, I have had laringitis for one month along with throat and ear pain and they cannot determine whats wrong they keep giving me meds that do not help and I have such little faith in doctors already this is really not helping matters at all.
I need to go to a ENT doctor I have tried to pick up the phone three times to make the appt and I panic and hang up, I think for two reasons, number one I am afraid to go, I know they have to put a camera down my throat or down my nose and that terrifies me, I know I will pass out or panic and make a complete fool of myself and professionals cannot deal with that, also even more than that, I know I have symptoms of laryganal cancer, no voice, and pain radiating to the ear are two of the main ones, and the most scariest thing is its lasted SO long!! I know people get sore throats and ear pain and even lose thier voice and they go to the Dr get a antibotic and feel better in a week or so, I did that before and it did not help and I am on my second round of antibotics along with predisone, which I dont like taking it makes me very weak, but I only have one more day on it, the antibotics will last awhile, the fact I have been sick for so long and the doctors cannot help me only instills more fear in me, it traditional treatment is not working there must be something very wrong, the last Dr. I saw said "I cannot help you anymore" that was scary hearing that, if MD cannot who can? And being physcially sick for so long has caused me too plummet back into panic and fear, I wake up panicking and I am crying all day, thinking its something terrible and I am going to die and leave my son, I am so praying the antibotic will clear it up this time, if not I sense I am in trouble, its should work.
Somehow I MUST get the courage to make the ENT and go and not panic and back out, if there is a bad problem waiting will not help, it was SO hard to go to two doctors, my nurse and the ER room, I was desperate for help and got none, Ashley said if one solution does not work another will, I am hanging on too those words. My nurse wants me to take klonopin three or four times a day just because of the bad way I am in, I think she fears I am having a meltdown because of the health and cancer fears and I think she is right, my husband is mad we have spent one month going to doctors, taking the meds, and spending all this time and money and no relief, he is mad I am depressed and terrified, I always avoided doctors because they never really helped, I really thought this time they would, I am turning to God now since the dr's cannot help.
I dont want to hear "the words" from a ENT doctor, thats why I keep putting it off, but somehow I must do this somehow.
Was anyone else ever sick with something like this? Laringitis for a month, one sided throat pain when swallowing going up the ear? did it get better? did the antibotics help? One thing antibotics have always helped me not this time and that is scaring me, this should not have persisited so long and the fact the doctors do not know whats wrong fills me with fear and dread.
I am sorry. I am sick, I am scared and I am all alone and I have reached out to the medical field and came up empty, and it the treatment they gave did not work then there is a possibiliy it could be worse, people get over this not for over a month.
How I wished I lived in Canada, the health care seems better there. Getting sick in Florida is not good. Sorry this is so long I just so need help and do not know where to turn, when the doctors cannot help that is not a good thing is it? Its so hard to remain positive when I am so sick, I just wish I could see the light at the end of the tunnel and get my life and health back again.
